Of Rapists & Victims: II

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Read the first of the series here.

She walks through,

Roads filled with street signs and scars,

Of graffiti and tattoos on walls,

Sex symbols and misery in red,

RRUUN,

She knows not to stay,

She knows not to become one with the darkness of the night,

She knows not,

Of prostitutes and pimps that turn their hustle into songs,

And force strangers to sing,

9 p.m,

The streetlights flicker,

10,

The silence falls,

Schizophrenic,

Yet the voices go,

The clicks of heels hitting the ground,

Sing me to sleep,
Baby,

1036,

She paces,

Not slick on the gas pedal,

He notices,

Through the rear view mirror,

Through the iris of a sinner,

Through instinct,

He reverses,

Slick on the gas pedal,

She falls,

Legs confused by the pulse of fear,

Legs confused by the head games of her stilettos,

1035,

He steps out of the car,

1036,

His steps are quiet,

1037,

The stillness of lust masquerading as innocence,

1037,

Heavy,
The weight of his presence on her skin,

1037,

Heavy,
She feels undressed by the ghosts of his hands,

Heavy,
She feels herself shaping into the arc of his desire,

And breaking,

Sing me to sleep,

Baby,

Chills of the devil’s voice,

You are one of them now,

You are one of the girls.

How To Be Alpha In A Beta World:

The first series in adopting an alpha mindset.

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Series I — Fear Of Judgement:

I cannot accurately define the term ‘alpha’ — for any attempt to do so will greatly limit its meaning.

I will, however, say that any man is justified in pursuing an ‘alpha’ state of mind — more so in this era of timidity and purposelessness found in the average personality.

One attribute of a ‘beta’ (for lack of a better term, ‘not alpha’) is people pleasing — and no matter how eloquently you may excuse this as a form of ‘kindness’ or ‘niceness’, this character trait will never inspire into success.

If anything, it is an exponential spiral towards personal failure,

— and you may not even realise this.

Why?

Because you have been conditioned to place value on opinions and judgements,

— even if they are dumbfounded,

— even if they bite down on your self-worth,

— even if they kill you,

I laugh at the absurdity (and subtle truth) of this forthcoming statement:

but the average person would rather swallow cyanide than be judged,

because judgement is its own slow, agonizing death.

This is a hard pill to swallow,

and however successful you may be, your success could easily be multiplied by a factor of ten thousand,

— if only you stopped caring what other people think about you,

How many times has a fear of judgement stopped you from pursuing your deepest, most intrinsic goals?

What will they think of me,

if I said I applied to Harvard?

What will they think of me,

if I asked for a raise?

What will they think of me,

if I wore this today?

What will they think of me,

if I asked her out?

Does this voice sound familiar?

Of course it does,

You listen to its fear-inducing hypotheticals daily.

Practice silencing it,

Practice clutching its mouth,

Because this ego-preserving voice has killed more dreams than death is blamed for,

It loves mediocrity,

— because no one questions average,

It loves comfort,

— because no one questions the norm,

It loves beta,

— because no one is threatened by beta.

You want to be alpha? You must free yourself from this fear first, anything else I say will be pointless.

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I am no advocate for narcissism,

But consciously place yourself first — always, in all that you value and believe in.

If you have to cancel a date because you need to submit a chemistry paper
— then do so.

Be the first in line when it comes to accomplishing your goals, your dreams
— your purpose. ( See A Written Letter To All Men: )

Be ruthless in virtues,

You want to be alpha?

Well, stop giving a f*#!

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