Happy to announce that I have officially published my first book titled HIS WORDS. HIS EMPIRE. HIS REIGN – now available on Amazon. Few words can truly describe the feeling – of being so raw and honest and vulnerable on paper – but that’s always been the beauty of poetry – it speaks for you and through you. Years of writing summarized in a few pages. Emotional roller-coasters and flowery sentences. Personification of the human soul and experience.
All on paper.
Get yourself a copy 🙂
I saw them burn him alive!
I saw fire latch onto his clothes as if it belonged to him. I saw smoke enter his lungs, denying him of life. I saw them throw petrol on his body. I saw his eyes intensify in pain as the fire grew. I saw his eyes tell a story no one listened to. I saw his body drop to the ground. I saw his hand reach out to the sky, as if heaven would open, and God would latch on to his soul, like fire did to his clothes. I saw his blood become one with the soil, as if it belonged there. I saw his body turn to ashes, except for the bones. I saw life and death in the singularity of a moment. I saw the police drive by, with sirens on their white Toyotas. I saw them salute the man who had started the beating. I heard the police say that was the rightful punishment.
For anyone that speaks against the government.
Piece inspired by: anyone who has fought for truth and freedom.
Recommended book reading:Â #1984georgeorwell
Dear black boy,
I know they segregated your mind to swag, hip-hop and culture. I know they taught you how to rap before you could read. I know your new album confirms your indoctrination. I know your high is not of God, but of the leaf. I know, deep down, that you believe. I know you lose sleep over the dreams you stopped chasing. I know the blood on your shirt means you pulled the trigger. Or is that from fighting the police? I know you sag your jeans as a metaphor. I know your self-esteem hangs much lower than that. I know your “drip” is an ocean of pretense. I know your “ice” is the element you traded your soul with. I know you know how to love a woman, but can’t afford to be seen as less of a man. I know they say black men make poor fathers. I know your father was hardly a man. How could he take care of two sons and his only daughter? I know you know, you can end the cycle. I know you know, that you can escape the prison bars of a limiting narrative. I know you know, because I am you.
Signed,
another black boy.
my type of love.
thrones your body.
king to your desires.
my type of love.
holds your neck hostage.
love bites to release you,
into surrender.
my type of love.
lingers on the tongue.
hypnotic.
your lips.
serenading,
with mine.
my type of love.
isn’t just about sex.
closure for the soul.
eye to eye.
stargazing.
into our little universe.
into — us.
my type of love.
gives a fuck.
plays on the dangerous.
toxic, yet intoxicating.
my type of love.
my type of love.
loves only a certain type.
model: @abhendi_claudia
The face of my forefathers.
men that smoked polygamy once.
and forgot to exhale.
men that –
stirred women.
– like fine wine.
between their tongues.
bitter sweet.
misogyny.
angry black.
women that –
breastfed.
– with both hands.
as if forcing a prayer.
into their children’s existence.
as if our lips.
– knew God.
as if we could empty
– the pain.
of father’s mistakes.
of men like.
– arsonists.
with petroleum for fingers.
women touched –
– between their thighs.
igniting sparks.
– sweaty nights.
deadly fights.
kisses from.
– other women.
– emotional tides.
– sons like.
– fire extinguishers.
– putting out.
– mothers burning.
– from your.
– fuckery.
Wear my poetry.
On your skin.
Recite parts of me.
On your stretch marks.
Carry my sensuality.
On your tongue.
Speak.
Only about us.
Of my Ubuntu lips.
Sun kissing.
Hot.
Seductive breathing.
Breathe in.
Our moments.
In every line.
Surprise me …
Tell your father you aren’t his.
Anymore.
Pack your belongings.
Recite me.
In every crevice.
Unwrap time.
As you fold.
Bags.
Heavy.
Like my body.
Unpacking sweat.
On yours.
Drown in me.
In every rhyme.
Wait for me.
On Beale Street.
Trace your ears.
One last time.
Whispers.
From me.
Sweeter.
Than honeymoons.
Tell your mother.
I am coming.
To take you home.
I come in many shapes and sizes.
To some, I am a man of charisma; the kind that stifles fear and electrifies the will.
To others, I am the biggest loser; the man with a balding sense of humour.
To the art of words, I am her brave Mister; the fool that tried to tame her and failed.
I do not claim that Poetry loves me in the same manner, but tis the love Shakespeare proclaimed.
A love affair with the sublime that only ends in one way: when the writer stops writing.
I was three when I first met my muse — my Juliette of poetry?
Sparks flew when she spoke in metaphors and I in broken vows and sentences.
I made a mockery of myself; what with the diaper and the lack of sophistication?
So I strengthened my acquisition with the world; I learnt the language of Men and Bots.
I went to pre-school.
I learnt to colour in between the lines to impress her. I was fervently in love with my muse, but I could not express her. I fell sick; my muse ignored me still.
From an early age to adolescent, I buried myself in television. I let the ambient box sing me to sleep. I let it erase my talents. I dragged through life and death — then back through life. I did things I would never trade my breath for — like learning to dance with both feet. The magic was missing. There was no thrill, no spunk.
Till I read ‘My Black Is Beautiful’ by Yolanda Mabuto.
If admitting that I cried means I’ll be stripped of my right to be a man, then set me free. I was revitalised of an energy I once knew; I was alive again. And I felt my muse blink.
Ever collapse to the sensation of being home after a long trip?
I felt the same; I felt the rush of belonging to something bigger than self — of belonging to Juliette.
I read more and she spoke a little louder. We dined over Jane Austen’s passages, laughed like children in Chuck Lorre’s ‘Vanity Cards’ and survived horrors in Stephen King’s ‘Nightmares and Dreamscapes’.
The more I marched over the terrains of literature, the closer I came to my muse.
Soon, we became one; we became night and day.
And with a kiss, she vanished.
She said I was ready.
Ready for what?
Ready to write.
Read the first of the series here.
She walks through,
Roads filled with street signs and scars,
Of graffiti and tattoos on walls,
Sex symbols and misery in red,
RRUUN,
She knows not to stay,
She knows not to become one with the darkness of the night,
She knows not,
Of prostitutes and pimps that turn their hustle into songs,
And force strangers to sing,
9 p.m,
The streetlights flicker,
10,
The silence falls,
Schizophrenic,
Yet the voices go,
The clicks of heels hitting the ground,
Sing me to sleep,
Baby,
1036,
She paces,
Not slick on the gas pedal,
He notices,
Through the rear view mirror,
Through the iris of a sinner,
Through instinct,
He reverses,
Slick on the gas pedal,
She falls,
Legs confused by the pulse of fear,
Legs confused by the head games of her stilettos,
1035,
He steps out of the car,
1036,
His steps are quiet,
1037,
The stillness of lust masquerading as innocence,
1037,
Heavy,
The weight of his presence on her skin,
1037,
Heavy,
She feels undressed by the ghosts of his hands,
Heavy,
She feels herself shaping into the arc of his desire,
And breaking,
Sing me to sleep,
Baby,
Chills of the devil’s voice,
You are one of them now,
You are one of the girls.
Colonialism kissed,
The face of the African sun,
Systematic,
The infiltration of the devil’s kiss,
Illusions of colour,
Illusions that blinded,
The hearts of supremacists,
WE ARE CHILDREN,
Dreams of our ancestors,
Silhouettes of their realities,
Our minds cannot conceive of,
Shades of black,
of niggers cut,
blood,
Bath of kaffirs,
The knife that is white privilege,
WE WERE BORN,
With a melanin scarred,
We spite,
The stretch marks on our skin,
Yet poverty sits,
On the roof of our tongues,
Can we afford to speak?
Lineages of men,
That smoked polygamy once,
And forgot to exhale,
Lineages of men,
That skip responsibility with a tempo,
Crescendos of pain,
Crescendos of absence,
Men that leave,
Before daughters utter the word,
Father.
A MOTHER’S VICE,
Chinua demands,
Chinua demands to eat,
Chinua always demands,
His stomach shouts,
Ghosts of his vigor,
Ghosts of his hard work,
His stomach shouts,
Substances of liquor,
Substances of his hard work?
She kneels,
And washes the hand that bruised and battered her,
She kneels,
And feeds the mouth that swallows her name whole,
Before vomiting out another,
Priscilla?
The turn of her insides.
She knows not,
Of the silent messages,
And the loudness of moans,
That aren’t hers,
She knows not,
Of the legs that spread,
On the same bed that holds her secrets,
She knows not,
Of her daughter’s beauty,
Because hers, surely,
Isn’t enough,
She knows not?
She knows,
And justifies,
And kneels.
You taste like poetry.
You taste like parts of you are falling apart, yet pulling themselves together.
You taste like contradictions.
You are contradictions.
